From the Shadowscapes Deck you have the Nine of Swords inverted. This is an intoiadcr that there is a lot of stress in your life, and that you really have to work on the way that you process this stress so that you can minimize it rather than magnify it. A lot of the time this is because you're being too hard on yourself and need to try and believe in yourself and make your subconscious aware of how awesome you are. Focus on the positive rather than the negative around you and remember that you can totally kick-ass.